Nancy Wichmann

Well, I had a marvelous experience. I won't go into why, but I needed to have a gown for the Christmas party worked on in a hurry (the party is in 2 days).

I checked the Yellow Pages and found two places nearby. One said she could have it back to me tomorrow, the other said she could do it today. So I went to the latter.

She treated me like any other woman, and even suggested doing something different from what I originally had in mind. She first pinned it the way I asked, then did it her way. I couldn't believe that I can do what she suggested, but it looked fabulous!

I couldn't be happier with her and her work. It is so refreshing in this up-tight "moral" town to find someone who treats me like a human being.

For those who will be seeing me Saturday, I hope you're as impressed by the gown as I was. Everyone else will have to wait for the pictures.

I was just getting ready to get my mother off to the center for the day. I was inadvertently standing in front of a mirror when I removed my panties. I just can't imagine how wonderful it's going to be when I can do that and not be disappointed that IT is still there.

We heard from the lawyer today. Because of the second estate claim, the whole thing is being delayed. Now it looks like the money won't be coming until around the first of April. So I had to write and delay my surgery. Very disappointing. But it might make it so my "rebith" may coincide with my original birth date.

I went to another support group in Myrtle Beach (part of an outreach from Kappa Beta). They were having a presentation by a girl who had her surgery about 3 months before. We had a lot in common so I talked to her and her roommate (who will being having her surgery in April). I did have some concerns that made me wonder if delaying mine might be a good idea.

I received an email from the surgeon's office. Since they hadn't heard anything from me, they were wondering if I was still on for the surgery. After several emails back and forth, I managed to preserve my original date of May 2. I had to send them a copy of my name change, driver's license, and a bank statement to show that I am living full time. I also found out that I don't really need a letter from a therapist saying that I should have the surgery. I may still try to obtain one.

"I have come to believe over and over again that what is most important to me must be spoken, made verbal and shared, even at the risk of having it bruised or misunderstood.

"My silences had not protected me. Your silence will not protect you." -- Audre Lorde

Who Am I?

I was born genetically male with no gross chromosomal irregularities. I was an Army brat with no real roots; we moved a lot until I was 16.

As I was trying on my gowns for the Christmas party, it dawned on me that I'm fretting over my choice just like any other girl would. In a way that makes me feel good. Maybe life is getting to be normal now that I am committed to being a woman full time, in body as well as mind.

We heard from the lawyer on the inheritance. With the other relative he located, we may be getting as much as $60K altogether! Praise the Lord!

We were at a club tonight and the entrance is all mirrored. As I saw a good looking girl wearing a nice denim miniskirt, it took me a brief moment to realize that was me. I wonder if that will ever change. Will I get used to seeing myself dressed as a girl? Do GGs sometimes take a moment to realize that's them in the mirror?

Got an email back from one of the local surgeons. He wants $4,250 plus $100 for a boob job - and we all know that American doctors have ways of getting lots more out of you. Thailand is looking better.

Set up May 2 as my date for surgery. Now, I hope the dollar cooperates (exchange rate).