December 10, 2009

I'm coming up on my 5th anniversary of my transition. It has been interesting coming here though. In Charlotte I worked for myself at home. Even though I only wore womens clothes and interacted with people as a woman, somehow going to an office every day and being fully accepted as me, without any mention of my past, was almost like transitioning all over again.

I have also been going to the Tiffany Club and, by contrast, think I am beginning to understand the "transsexual-leaving-the-GLBT-community-behind" phenomenon.

At the office, I am "blending in," that is being accepted as any other woman would be - being just who I am. But at the Tiffany Club, I am reminded of what I am, and that is unsettling.

So my hypothesis is that as a TS becomes more blended into the "civilian" world, she desires to not be reminded of her past, thus at some point (often at the time of surgery), she eschews the GLBT community as a means to further distance herself from the confusion most of us felt in our past.

While one may debate the merits of this action, it is certainly understandable. Just being the present me is far more pleasurable than the past me has been at times.